Wednesday, April 22, 2009


I wanted to give a quick shout out to all of the ICLW peeps visiting. I just discovered it a few days ago and have read some great blogs! for those of you who don't know what ICLW is, click on the link to the right with the little cartoon doggie - it will explain it all and there's a list of blogs too. Most have to do with TTC experiences.. great idea!

Anyway, I wanted to give you all a quick background on me. There's a TTC timeline on this blog too, but here's the gist...

I am 35, DH is 36. We have 2 labradors and a cat and have been married for 10 years now, TTC for nearly that long. I have "unexplained infertility". As we continue with our RE (Oregon Reproductive Medicine) I have found bit by bit that I have a hormonal imbalance which causes me to not ovulate. I didn't respond to Clomid, and did 3 injection cycles which I did respond to, but ended up BFN each time. I ws supposed to start IVF this past March but my RE found that the fibroid I had was too big and ordered surgery. My abdominal myomectomy was March 11. I have been off work for 6 weeks and I go back next week.

DH and I will be trying one last natural cycle next month. Actually in a week. The big differences now are:
  1. No more fibroid pumping estrogen into my system!
  2. Dietary changes - I am mostly organic now and have cut back on everything processed, although I can't resist peanut m&m's :)
  3. Currently on BCP, which I am hoping will kick my next cycle into high gear.

If that fails I will have IVF in June/July. If THAT fails... well, I don't know.

That's my TTC life in a nutshell. Similar to others, with the same emotional rollercoaster that goes along with it. I try to stay positive, in fact my RE has commented on how positive I am despite the disappointments I have had.

It's a front.

I am miserable through this. BUT I keep my hopes up that something will work this year and I will no longer have to deal with this.

I don't only blog about TTC, if you read further you will know I am pretty random.

Now if you will excuse me my dog is kicking her water bowl around the kitchen. I think she's trying to tell me something. :)


Celia said...

Happy ICLW. Have you gone with organic cleaners too? We just switched to organic beef and chicken. I did think the organic chicken was moister but other than that could not tell the difference.

cat said...

i am so happy you are going all organic, and i second celia on cleaners, body products, etc.. also, don't everdo it with soy (estrogen in there too). okay okay..big sis will stop now..LOL

but i am proud of you and i KNOW this hasn't been easy for you. one way or another you will be a mommy my dear...and you will be a damn good one!!! but don't worry if you need to fall apart every so often. i TOTALLY understand those emotions and they are perfectly normal and very healthy... you've got alot of people who are more than happy to catch you...*smooch*

love you....

Lucky Jones said...

Yes, I switched to organic cleaners a while ago. I use a lot of baking soda or vinegar for cleaning, although I don't like the smell of the vinegar so I put a couple of drops of vanilla in. And I can totally tell the difference between organic and non-organic chicken now! To me the non organic is so salty... We have a store here called Haggen, the organic stuff there is actualy cheaper than non-organic!

Oh, I don't do soy at all cat :)

Erika said...

Best of luck this summer with your ttc plans. I hope everything works out for you!


jon and tracy g said...

Good luck with your upcoming TTC plans. I hope you get your BFP soon!


Clare said...

Great to find you through ICLW! Good luck on next month's TTC.. I totally understand about the positive front. I have it too - it is the only way I can get up in the morning and keep it all together. If I had my way I'd just stay in bed, cry it all out and mope around. Alas, that really is no way to live and somehow we find the strength to keep it all together.

Mr. Shelby said...

Happy to be here from ICLW! I hope you get your BFP soon, can't wait to read about it!

Mr. Shelby (From iclw)

Scrambled Egg said...

We also have 2 big dogs...and hope to add to our family with children. =) You have had a long hard journey. And your optimism is inspiring! I hope that this IVF is the key! =)

Also, curious about fibroids and estrogen. I've never heard that connection before. Do you have any information?


Phoebe said...

Yeah, those fibroids suck. I had a laparoscopic myomectomy three years ago. I too think it was putting more estrogen in my system. Good luck on your IVF cycle!