Apologies!

Hey all,

I am sorry I had to block my site. I discovered a work-related troll who began using this information as ammunition against me. Even though nobody here knows where I work, who my boss is, or any other details other than I am in Portland and knocked up. Oh, and my husband is Josh.

So on with work stuff. I had a conversation with my boss and feel comfortable and happy with my outcome. I am moving to another store with a lower title, less responsibility, more time for me, and no paycut. So lucky me. I am happy I don't have to go further and feel like it will be good for everyone.

So there you go... now I need a nap....

My Dr Appt today :)

First off, thank you to everyone for your support on the whole work deal. I contacted HR today and emailed a full statement as to my claims. I also spoke with my previous boss (who I LOVE) about it all, she was insanely supportive and gave me some great advice. I hope it doesn't go to a court room, but if it does, I am ready for the fight...

My assistants have both given me written statements on how they feel about my work and me as a manager. I also am getting them from at least 2 other employees. I told them only if they were comfortable with it, not one of them hesitated. I am so happy to have the support.

One of my assistants told me something today that really made me cry. She said God wouldn't have given me my miracles without having a plan on how I will care for them. She said not to worry, God will make sure we are taken care of. It just got me...

On with the news of my appointment :).....

I had my first visit with my OB today. I have to say I am so happy to have made the change! He is wonderful, informative, and totally supportive! I really felt like he will personalize my experience and I am so pleased with him. I feel completely comfortable being his patient.

PLUS...

this first visit was basically a sit-down to ask questions and get to know him. we talked for a solid hour on what to expect, being high risk, testing, etc etc. Then he asked if I wanted to see the babies.. uhh YEAH! I wasn't expecting an ultrasound but he gave me one for free :) He also said I would have monthly u/s. So I got to see my babies again today! They are still perfect. They both meassure at 11 weeks exactly and are so beautiful! I was sad that Josh wasn't with me again, but we didn't know. Plus I have another u/s on Oct 13. I am anxiously looking forward to seeing my little gummy bears again, I can't get enough :)

Seeing my babies again made me calm down instantly. They make me realize that nothing in this world matters more than them.

Never let a pregnant woman go to the store

She will leave fora carton of milk and come back with taco stuff, strawberry shortcake stuff, sour patch kids, chips, salsa, pepperidge farm cookies, rocky road ice cream, a watermelon, and a pineapple.....

....but not a carton of milk....

9w2d...

I had my second u/s today, and my very last appointment with my amazing Dr who made this all possible....

The babies are growing well! Both are measuring 9w1d and have strong heartbeats! Baby A was at 167 and Baby B at 163... Baby A was wiggling around all over the place, it was so adorable! Sorry for the bad picture, there are more I will try to scan. There are 2 of Baby A, one head on and one profile. That's when she wiggled. Yes, I said she, I have a very strong feeling A is a girl and B is a boy. Call it mother's intuition :) We will see if I'm right in 2-3 months!!

I also got rid of my orginal OB and got a new one. Yay! I already feel happier about it! He was recommended by my RE and is even in the same building. So I get to deliver at Good Samaritan like I want and will be with a dr who has previous experience with my RE's patients. So my next appointment is Sept 29th..

I had so much anxiety going into this u/s. I was scared to death. Josh couldn't go with me either. It was stressful... poor guy, I was practically biting his head off all morning, so I am making it up to him by making ribs for dinner....

So happy!! Next week I will start posting belly shots...

To Seattle we a-go-go

Josh and I are driving up to see his sister Tabitha and her family today :) yay! I haven't come up since some time in June so I am very excited to spend the weekend there. The weather is beautiful, so far the car ride is ok for me and the babies, and the whole ap.ple fiasco has been taken care of. Now they are offering me free products. What should I get? Another ma.cbook? A new iPhone? A 20" moniter perhaps? I'm thinking free product will be a hefty i.tunes credit and maybe a cord or something. Which is fine by me :)

On the pg front, I had a miserable headache yesterday and was bummed I couldn't take anything for it. It went away with sleep :) no real nausea, no pain, I am still just tired but otherwise normal. Which of course scares the shit outta me. But no spotting, cramping, etc. I did have spotting 2 weeks ago but I didn't blog about it. I called my nurse and she assured me it would stop and to call if I start cramping or it gets heavy. It stopped and I haven't seen it since.

My stomach has actually gone down a bit. Of course logical me would say it is my innards settling into their new spots and roles as second to the uterus. And paranoid me thinks the babies and my womb have stopped growing. But they haven't. Pants still don't fit. Still have a bump. Still need my belly band.

I get to see the babies again on Thursday :) I am again nervous and excited! I think the only time I will begin feeling at ease is when I feel the kicks. All four of those tiny feet :)

Today has to be better, right?

Yesterday the bad news just kept coming. First, there was that bad feeling at my ob (see previous post), then ap.ple completely screwed up an order and charged us $1000.... Long story short, Josh got a mac.book air and decided he wanted the pro instead, so instead of refunding and then charging us they just charges us. It's being taken care of, though.

Then the worst news... An old friend whom I haven't talked to in a few months passed away back in June. I didn't know until yesterday. It makes me sad that I missed her memorial and that I had been meaning to call her and just never got around to it. She had Lupus and passed from complications of the disease. It's so heartbreaking, she was only 29.

Elizabeth ("lizard"), if you can read this or hear me just know that I love you so much and I'm so sad you are gone. We had some fun times together and I will miss you.....

Class today... Eh...

So I had my prenatal class today with my regular ob's nurse. It was me and 5 other preggos all at least 8 years younger. We had to go around the room saying how far along we were and our neaseua battles. So it got to me and I said 8 weeks with twins, there were oohs and ahhs all around. Then they all started questioning how I knew so I said I had a sonno at 6 wks. None of them had a sonno yet, so they were all shocked when I said I had.

Anyway only u and another lady who was 11 wks were showing. There was a "marathon runner" (her words) that claimed she was ten wks and had a flatter stomach than I had ever seen.

I found out my dr doesn't deliver at the hospital I want to be at. Boo. And the nurse kept saying things like dyeing your hair was fine and 12-16 oz of caffiene was fine. Wha??!?!? You mean to tell me a million other people are wrong and you are right?

I wasn't comfortable with the statements she was making, and the fact that I can't deliver at my hospital makes me sad. I am going to ask my re for some recommendations next week when I go in for my 2nd sonnogram.

So it was ok. Just ok. I felt weird being there with women who got pg the old fashioned way. I felt out of place....

OB appointment made and new pains

I made an appt with my OB. It's 09/22, but I also have a class that she requires new pregnant patients to take this tuesday. I guess it's about eating right, exercise, etc. So it should be informative!

My next (probably last) appt with my RE is set for the 17th. It's bittersweet. I have been going there for 2 years now and I am going to miss the staff. The people at Oregon Reproductive have been amazing always. They made me feel like I was the only patient that existed. Although I am happy to graduate because they helped me achieve my dream, I am so sad because they have been a huge part of our lives. Josh and I will miss them.

On to new pains. I can feel my uterus growing. Obviously I know that it's going to grow faster with twins, there's so much pressure being applied to my other organs! Especially my bladder... So weird to feel that. Also my abdomen is literally growing almost by the hour. I wake up bigger than I was the night before and come home from work bigger than I was in the morning. Only slightly but I can tell. It's crazy. It's nice to know everything is still growing as it should.

Other than that I am just tired all of the time. I slept about 9 hours last night and took 2 two hour naps today. I feel like if I put my head down right now I will be asleep in 5 minutes :) ahhh, I LOVE pregnancy sleep, it's the best ever :)

New craving?

I was watching a lame horror flick last night (thank god my cable is finally installed!! No more movies!!) and the girl was eating Cap'n Crunch. I immediately looked to Josh and said "oh my god I want Cap'n Crunch. Now. With crunch berries". He looked at me and said "do you really want me to go out at 1am to get you cereal? I will if you want." I said no, I can wait and get it myself tomorrow.

See? He was being wonderful by offering (begrudgingly) to get some, and I was wonderful for not making him do it.

So here I sit eating apples, grapes, and crackers waiting to get off work to get me some Cap'n Crunch. With crunch berries. Yummmmm.

Unsolicited advice

So I was at work today. I was wearing a tight sweater so you could see my bump. If I wear something loose you can't see it, but I do have one. It's about the size that i could be pg, but I could just be fat. Beside the point... I was at the counter with my hand on my belly because the kiddos were giving me a bout of neausea. A trashy lady comes up to me and asks when I was due.

Me: early next year
Her: wow! You are huge for not being very pregnant!
Me: Thanks. I'm carrying twins. We twin carriers usually measure 4 weeks ahead.
Her: your hands are gonna swell. Your feet too. That's gonna suck for you.
Me: well, my sisters didn't have a whole lot of swelling issues, neither did my mom, so I think I will be ok.
Her: well they didn't have twins, did they?
Me: no, do you have twins?
Her: no, but I swelled.
Me: I'm not related to you. I think I will be just fine.
Her: you are gonna swell big time.
Me: then come back in a few months. I will be the one with the sausage fingers and Kleenex boxes on my feet cuz no shoes fit.

Really lady, do you honestly think I care about your water retention issues? This lady had to have been around 230 lbs or more. Me? I'm like 140ish give or take. I also down water like you wouldn't believe and don't have water retention issues. She looked like she ate cheetos and red bull through her pregnancy. Her flabby tummy was actually hanging out of her shirt. Her muffin top frightened me. Why the hell was she in a high end designer store?

Sorry, I don't mean to judge, but come on. She looked like one of the people on that site peopleofwalmart.com. Check it out, it's funny and sad at the same time. I liken her to the lady in the pink top. You'll know her when you see her.

I guess this is just the start of all of the unsolicited advice that will happen upon me in the next 7 or so months. Awesome. The dark side of pregnancy.

Oh, and my sweet wonderful husband looked at me the other day and says " it will be fun to see what this pregnancy does to you". Asshole.

Crafty giveaway :)

I signed up for this over on Coco's Blog (Wishing, Hoping, Thinking, Praying) I have seen this on a lot of people's blogs but hopefully there is someone out there who hasn't done it yet and wants to!

The first five people to respond to this post will get something made by me, especially for you. Yay presents!! This offer does have some restrictions and limitations:


1- I make no guarantees that you will like what I make but I hope you will.

2- What I create will be just for you.

3-They say I have a year to get it to you. But I promise it will NOT take that long.

4- You have no clue what it's going to be. (nor do I at this point! :)

The catch? You must re-post this on your blog and offer the same to the first 5 people who do the same on your blog.

So the first five people who post, and are willing to pass it along,will get a handmade gift in the mail from me. When you get it, make sure you post a pic on your blog! Let's have some fun!