Monday, August 3, 2009

Overwhelmed

I don't know if it's the drugs, the bedrest, or what but I am feeling completely overwhelmed right now. I don't think I want to talk about this whole experience until there is something to talk about.

I've updated all I know, and I know I won't have anything else until next week. I don't want to over-analyze symptoms, talk about how I'm feeling, etc because frankly I will drive myself nuts. Also my feelings physical and emotional change at the drop of a hat, so I don't know how much real truth there is in "how I feel". Just know I'm excited, scared, happy, depressed, in pain, feel just fine... I don't know how I'm supposed to feel so I will just feel it all. Or nothing. Or some. I don't know.

I just want to believe this has worked and let it be.

14 comments:

cat said...

you are in the tww and these are very real and expected emotions on a normal level...your's are even more sensitive due to the circumstances of your wait. *huge hugs* just do what you need to do my dear and talk when you feel like you want to. it's all okay and i am always here no matter what...

*hug*

sweetpeanme said...

I was thinking about that the other day...wow...I won't really have anything to post while I'm waiting...cuz everyone knows we're just waiting!!!!
Praying your wait is quick and your dreams come true!!!

Brandie said...

I will pray these two weeks fly by - and the end result will be wonderful news. ((hugs))

Scrambled Egg said...

You are in my thoughts! May this be the fastest 2ww in history. I'm praying and crossing my fingers for you!!

M said...

i can totally understand that. the TWW is one of the hardest parts of this process. for now, i, too, will just believe that it worked for you.

cat said...

i too will believe...sending some love..:)

Amy said...

Sorry your feeling overwhelmed. I hope the next 2 weeks fly by for you.

Katie said...

Take all the time you need and do exactly what you want to do- whatever lowers your stress and makes the wait more tolerable. Hang in there!

IF Optimist, then... said...

I vote that instead of over-analyzing every symptom (I've been there sistah) that instead you watch the movie "The Committments" or "Once".

Meg. said...

I can only imagine what you're going through right now. But man, those are some *beautiful* embies that were transferred!

I'm pulling for you during this difficult, emotionally exhausting time.

(and pssst....I bestowed a little award on your blog! Check out my blog for the deets)

Celia said...

If you need a distraction in the 2WW I suggest Russel Brand. he is pretty dirty, but VERY funny. I did not think about ANYTHING the entire time I watched his act.

Billy said...

Here from LFCA, hope these two weeks go by as quickly as possible and that you get a beautiful big fat positive!

Aunt Becky said...

Hang in there. I hope time rockets by.

Parenthood For Me said...

You feel what you feel and all the emotions you listed sound right to me. Sending you hopeful and happy thoughts.