Monday, July 13, 2009

My bruise is looking better, now more of an eggplant shade then black. Actually I think I have an eyeshadow this color...

Last night I was working late doing an update for my store and had to bring my meds with me. I decided to prep the syringe ahead of time and fill it with the 10mg of Lupron and just take that. I stuck it in a baggie with my dexamethesone and doxycycline (as well as an alcohol prep) and smuggled it in my sunglass case. There are 2 people who know what's going on, it's only on an as-needed basis. One is one of my assistants who asked for the weekend of my potential ET off. I had to tell her that it may not happen due to my deal. the second is one of my associates. We got to talking about TTC and I opened up to her on how difficult it has been for Josh and I. But they are the only ones who know...

I figured if someone knew I would have an ally (or 2) when the time comes. I would have my shifts at work covered with a knowing silent understanding of why.

I have my suppression check on Thursday, bright and early... this is the first time I am praying for low numbers!! if all is well I will begin Gonal-F Saturday. Eek, it's really happening, isn't it?!

I have the weekend off too, my first in a while. I am not sure what Josh and I are doing for the weekend, I want to go to the Farmer's Market, then maybe the beach or Seattle... just a bit of relaxing. But that may not happen due to the possibility of in-laws here.

I'm a little scared that this isn't going to work. I hear so many people say the first IVF is almost like a practice run. Any success stories on IVF #1 working that anyone can share to make my nerves a bit calmer??

6 comments:

Simple said...

Hi - I'm on my first IVF too! I just started meds 2 days ago & am scared & so excited!
If you go to the cyclista blog, they have a list of who is doing what (IVF or IUI) and what # they are on - lots are on #1 & already have success stories. That's what keeps me going! Good luck! :)

Simple said...

I should have given you the site:
http://www.cyclesista.com/

Best When Used By said...

I think it's good to have a few people at work knowing what's going on if you might need them to work for you. How could they possibly turn you down now? And don't get discouraged! Everyone is different and just because some people's first IVF doesn't work, that doesn't mean it won't work for YOU. Each shot, each day, brings you one day closer to your ER/ET!

Chele said...

Carol, my friend, Tess conceived her little boy around this time last year on her first IVF try. She thought she was completely out because they only retrieved three eggs and only one of them made it. We kept telling her all it took was one egg and sure enough we were right. Keeping positive and everything crossed for you.

Katie said...

Well MINE is going to be a success. ;) (I hope, because there will be no IVF #2 regardless) It sounded like bringing the meds to work worked out just fine. Good luck with your check on Thursday!

IF Optimist, then... said...

Glad to read your cycle is going well. I hope you get a little vacay on the weekend if you can. For your little bruise I award you the IVF purple heart. :-)