Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Thoughts in the TWW

So I don't think I will get another report until I go in Sunday morning. I am praying for my 17 babies, that each one will grow healthy and strong and my Dr will have a hard time deciding which 2 to put back... My sister made me laugh when she said "well I hope they put back Daphne and Dexter, that would suck if they put back a couple that you don't know!" I am also planning on testing before my blood test, just because I want to have an idea of whats going on, especially since I will be at work that day.

AND I still have Chele's Lucky HPT. 2 of the 3 she has given the HPT's to have gotten a BFP :) So I'd say they are lucky...

I was at the grocery store today buying organic veggies (since it's WAY too hot to go to the Farmer's Market) and thought about something. I had heard 1 in 4 women suffer from infertility at some point in their lives. and just over 10% have serious issues that require more than a minor change, such as PCOS, Male Factor, Endo, or just unexplained. I wondered how many of the women I saw today had suffered or are currently struggling with it. I began seeing it all from a different perspective. I must have come across 100 women today during my errands. Of those women, 25 have felt the way I have felt. They have cried when only one line has shown up, they have blamed themselves, or wondered "why me?". They have had the BFP only to have it taken away again. 10 of those have yet to overcome it, or possibly never will. I wonder how many have given up?

I would say maybe one. If that.

We TTCers are a strong group. We have had tears, heartache, pain, confusion. But we always keep going back for more. Why?

Because of hope. And maybe some stubborness.

But mostly hope.

6 comments:

Best When Used By said...

I had no idea it was 1 in 4. That's a lot! But you know, the more I listen for it, the more I hear people say they ttc and had trouble. Well, here's hoping your lucky HPT works some magic! And I was like you...I HAD to poas before the official blood test! Good luck!

The Patterson's said...

What a great perspective! I never thought of it that way either.

cat said...

you are so very wise my dear. no matter what stage of infertility people go through, it is heartbreaking at some point on their journey. and yes, hope keeps bringing us all back for more....*hug*

i'm really holding good thoughts for your 17 babes and that daphne and dexter show themselves to be the strongest! i can't believe that on sunday you will be pregnant!!!!!! i love you so much...i tried to call yesterday, but apparently i have an old cell in our phone (jason's phone with all the updated numbers was submerged and now is kaput..;) ) email me your number!

i love you sis...

Chele said...

Daphne and Dexter will be picked we just don't know which ones are Daphne and Dexter.

My stats are actually 4 for 5. I just haven't been much of a blogger lately and I it didn't feel right to post about it because they haven't announced their pregnancies to their family and friends.

++++ vibes the tests I sent to you will be just as lucky.

IF Optimist, then... said...

Great post. It is mind boggling when you consider how many others are affected by this. Wishing all the best for the "17 that could" and good luck on Sunday.

K said...

Found your blog via Meg's award (congrats!), and just wanted to say this post made me accept the hope I've been trying to keep under control during this TWW. Best to you in these coming days!