Is it hormonal in here or is it just me?

So today I had the height of my emotional, um, issues? instability? whatever, I was emotional.

Boss was at my store. I had a HUGE floorset last night and was at my store until almost 1am. I knew the floorset still needed work. So my boss didn't exactly ream me over it, not mean, just assertive about it. I can usually handle that and take criticism very well. I am NOT a cry-er. Especially at work. But today... well, I lost it. I mean lost it. I couldn't stop crying. My boss was feeling bad and I had to explain to her that it had nothing to do with what she was telling me, I got it and I agreed with her completely. I told her it was hormones, and then I said it. I told her I had my ER tomorrow and told her that I have been shooting myself with all kinds of hormones for the last week or so and it made me emotional.

Surprisingly, she understood. I was surprised. She of course went back to the workrelated issues, but she understood why I had struggled and why I was emotional.

Unfortunately all of the salty tears affected my vision, and ultimately my contact lens, which tore towards the end of the day. So driving home was scary.

Anyway, It all got me thinking... maybe if this does work I should step down to assistant manager instead of store manager. Less stress. Less responsibility. BUT less money. But it may be worth it....

Then again, it could be my hormones talking.

Josh gave me my HCG shot last night. He had no problem what-so-ever doing it too. I think he actually enjoyed it... Did I mention I was at my store all evening? Yeah, so since it's against company policy to have a non-employee in the store after hours (much less a friend/relative/spouse) we had to meet somewhere. So where do you meet to get a shot at 9pm? A bar? not that kind of shot.

We met up by my car in the 8-story-downtown-Portland-parking garage.

Yes, that's right. My husband shot me in the a$$ in a parking garage. No, nobody was there.

And I don't think I am the first person to inject something in that parking garage. I mean, it IS downtown Portland...

ER scheduled for 8am tomorrow morning, I have to be there at 7:15. Wish me luck ;)

First day and trains

I had my first day at my new store yesterday and let me tell you, we rocked it. We had a better selling day than they've seen in months. Yay me :)

I'm on the train coming home (I decided to forego the city traffic. Quite nice!) and there's this lady talking to some guy about how Portland is unlike any other city because you can be whatever you want, do whatever you want, and dress however you want and no one bats an eye. Excuse me lady, have you ever been to San francisco, L.A., New York, or any other major city? I don't see a difference except for weather.

Day of cleaning and crafting :)

It's been raining all day today (Portland - what else is new?). I spent my day off cleaning my house and finishing up a bunch of finger puppets for sale on ETSY! I also am nearing completion of that wall sculpture I have been working off and on for a few weeks. It's looking pretty cool... Josh thinks I need to sell it but I am kind of liking it for myself :)

I also have some headbands which I need to have someone model before I get them on to Etsy. Here's an example of one:

Modeled by the sweet and lovely Leah, who is also the new proud owner of said headband...

Josh also decided to confiscate a finger puppet for himself which he is calling "Sinister Banana". As Brandi says, bananas are evil and this one is no exception...

Josh thinks this banana is evil and has definitely killed before...

Oh, and PLEASE vote on a business name for me :) This is only for the felt products, I will keep the jewelry and such on Etsy... See voting on the right..

This is me......

So I don't know who will ever read this, but I figured I would chronicle my little life on this huge planet. I will call myself Lucky Jones here....

Start out with my likes/dislikes....

I like hot baths, living in the Pacific Northwest, and bargain shopping for cute shoes. I like going to thrift stores with my sister (in law) and finding kitch. I will most likely post my favorites here. I love my husband, my dogs Lucy and Jelly, my cat Lucky. I love snuggling in with the dogs on either side of me so close I can't move....

Lucy is the big yellow lab...Look closely, see Jelly next to me??


I love to read books on sex, death, strippers, and heroines who do heroin (Body of a Girl by Leah Stewart, good book if you like to read)...


I don't like when people say "supposibly" or "nip it in the butt". I don't like confrontation, but I find a need to do it frequently at work. And I don't like feeling helpless.

Ok, now here's me....

I am a 34 year old wife of nine years. I work as a store manager for a well known company which shall remain nameless for now. I live in the Pacific Northwest, probably one of the most beautiful places you will ever see. I am currently working on my life's work - trying to get pregnant. It's been a long, hard journey... a lot of ups and downs....

Currently I am in the "down" part.

I see an amazing doctor who has pinpointed my issue. I have had more tests than a college student in the last 6 months. I have spent thousands of dollars.

My name is Lucky, and I have a hormone deficiency.

I don't respond to clomid, a common fertility drug. I do respond to injections of a hormone I should be producing on my own. The problem is I responded too well and now have 3 large cysts which should be babies. So this month I am taking off from the whole "poking myself with a needle everyday" thing. I say fuck it for now.

FUCK IT!

I am going on vacation starting April 3, 2008 at 5pm PST until Sunday, April 13 at 7PM. and I am going to drink heavily, buy shoes, and forget about this little problem for a while....