Monday, February 23, 2009

16 days... well 15 1/2 days...

... til I get cut open abdominally. Ugh, just when I am all cool with it I think of the what-ifs, such as

  • "what if there's a major complication and they just take my uterus out completely?"
  • "what if I get a bad infection?"
  • "what if they leave something in my body that shouldn't be there?"

Obviously there are other what-ifs I am not touching on... My blood counts are good so I am low risk for a transfusion, and my sister in law surgical tech told me to tell them to "make sure you get the maliables out", apparently those are the things that hold it all open while the surgeon does his job... sorry, too much information?

So right now I am thinking of the corporate visit I am getting at my store on Thursday that I will never be ready for... and I have a whole big shopping list of things I need to get prior to going to the hospital, so that's fun (not)....

Ok, time for chocolate....

3 comments:

Chele said...

All perfectly normal emotions. Anyone that has had a major surgery goes through the same gamet of emotions. Sending lots of calming vibes and positive vibes for the very best outcome possible. Big Hug.

Brandie said...

As Chele said, it's normal to feel this way. You sound so much like me . . .because I'm always about the 'what ifs'. I will keep my fingers crossed for you and will keep sending those positive vibes.

cat said...

i know you will be fine...but it's so normal to have these thoughts before major surgery! i love you sis..hang in there, it will all be over soon and this time next year you'll be preparing for daphne or dexter or both! :D