A new year, a new life (or two)

Looking back on this year I realize how much I have accomplished. It started out with dreamy prospects of IVF in Feb. Those dreams quickly went away upon the discovery of my fibroid growing and surgery required. I was devastated. I had to wait 3 months to try again. March 11 I had it removed. My mom, sister, and nephew came out to nurse me back to health. I met an amazing nurse that I hope to have again at the births.

In May I went back to start my ivf cycle. Discovery of polyps required yet another surgery. This was the first time I broke down in front of my doctor. June 1 was my second surgery. I finally began ivf prep at the end of June.

I switched stores at work. While I was sad to leave my staff, I made friends for life at my new store and will be forever grateful to have them in my life.

August 7th was one of the happiest days of my life. I saw it. Two lines. Ivf worked! Beta on August 11 confirmed it. Then 2 1/2 weeks later another happy day. Twins. I cried and cried.

Now, at just over 24 weeks, I still am amazed I have these two lives growing inside of me. With every kick I am reminded. I'm a mom! My lifelong dream.

Through all of this I have had one constant. My rock. My best friend. My husband.

Josh has been there for me through it all. He has felt the pain I have felt, the joys I have, the feelings of excitement, fear, happiness, elation, sadness. But above all else, he has been there for me. Our relationship has grown stronger with each day that passes.

I am so happy to have him beside me. 2010 is that much better knowing I have Josh right here with me.